I read through my old entries transferred over from Beyond Contestation. These were about my feelings during and after breast cancer treatments. It amazed me how much I had forgotten, how my immume system became so depleted taking a long time to recover, the pain in my digestive system caused by the chemo resulting in me taking yet more medication, my hair falling out (every where except on my lower legs, it just become more … well more), nausea though the medication helped … all but once, skin under the left breast become raw, painful and inflamed after the radiotherapy, the changes in taste and smell, that took a while to return to normal.
Compared with many people who were receiving treatment at the same Oncology Clinic, I was lucky. My counsin had to be hospitalised a few months later in the specialist cancer hospital as she developed clots on her lungs and subsequently died, she was 50.
The good points, it gave me more time with family and friends so whatever problems I may have suffered, the treatment helped.
My hair including eyebrows and eyelashes grew back, my hair was back to its old colour, most of the grey had gone, my eyelashes were longer, eyebrows darker. The grey has slowly returned, to be expected after all I am now 62.
The Tamoxifen caused me many problems, but my time on this medication has finished and slowly my memory is returning to normal, but my hair which became thinner over the five years is still curly.
If the cancer has gone, then the treatment was worth it, if only for 5 extra years and that was all I was told I could expect. Only time will tell.
My only mistake … IMHO … was having a lumpectomy instead of a mastechtomy, hope the spelling is OK. It would have been easier I think than still having a Jordan size left boob caused by radiotherapy, which after 5 years is still painful at times, lots of scar tissue and also “orange peel” skin.